Edit: No iPhone over here! No smartphone at all, just a wee cheap one.
I’m looking for a mood diary. I’ll fill it in with Robert’s input considering there are a fair amount of times I wouldn’t be able to recognise my own mood.
I want a computerised one because- well, they’re fun! I like ones where I input more numbers (mood 1-10, hours of sleep etc as I’m very aware that sleep impacts massively on my mood and I exploit that) than words because, at a glance, it’s easier to see where I am.
So if you have any recommendations, hit me up! If you use one, how useful do you find it? I’m still feeling fairly low but some self-deception, making sure I don’t sleep too much and attempting to keep busy is helping. My plan, I guess, is have an emergency stash of medication in the house so when my mood starts to get too high I can knock it on the head or at least sleep. If I even bother to think it is too high, which is why I’ll need Robert’s help. In my current Regime, it’s unlikely I’m going to be on any mood stabilisers, and I’ve (genuinely) forgotten to take citalopram in the past few days (I’ll go back on it today), so, self management it is! I’m mostly fairly self aware and years of practice have meant I’m a lot better at being pro-active in managing my moods than I ever used to be, so I can do it. I’m trying to organise things in other ways, too. I have a chalkboard in which I write things to do on it, which makes me feel a bit more like a human, even if I seem to totally neglect the, “Have a Wash” command (but really, I’ve also neglected, “Wash the Towels” so what can you do?) And I have a year planner in which I’ve written my writing hours in and my class hours. In glittery pens like a fecking ten year old. Hooray!
I’m very keen not to get unwell. In December last year I was signed with a literary agency and it seemed like 2010 was going to the Year For Me. Instead, it’s virtually wiped out by not being entirely well. I don’t want another year like that; there has been far too many already.
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