Who Are You?

It’s finally snowing in London! Albeit fartily and pessimistically! Although the church looks suitably romantic, sneakily hiding the sludge being kicked to its rotting gravestones.  Neither of us slept last night, so we went out at 5am to leave footprints, me in my pyjamas. Robert promptly fell asleep when we got back. I didn’t, and [...]

Reading your own medical records: SCUNDERED

(Scundered is a Northern Irish word for mortal embarrassment).  I debated posting this because, well, it’s unflattering! So, was I an unstable manic depressive teenager, unstable borderline teenager, just a teenager, or all or none of the above? Oh god.  I read my records.  I saw them.  I laughed. I cringed.  It was in parts [...]

Nostalgia for madness

I don’t know if I’m down or whatever.  It’s a Friday night and I’m sitting here on my own, feeling quite quiet and inert, without the rain to listen to, smoking and occasionally making tea, aimlessly flicking through web pages, flicking away again. I am a little lonely at the moment, and it makes me [...]

Mackenzie Taylor 1978-2010.

Yesterday, I woke up to a text from Jon telling me that comedian and fellow mentalist Mackenzie Taylor committed suicide on Thursday. I didn’t know Mackenzie well.  I met him when we were both involved in Warning: May Contain Nuts in Berkshire and Sussex, and we spoke very occasionally on Facebook,  but this news was [...]

Shenanigans

I had an appointment with my GP today.  Not my usual GP, which was deliberate.  It usually takes a leg or two falling off before I submit myself to the GP, and if that was the case, it’s pretty certain the first question I’d be asked would be, “So…how’s your mood?  Have you been self [...]

Quick update! Hiya!

Hello, here I am to bore you once more with a quick, self obsessed update. My sell-out self because I actually received an email criticising me for not representing the true experience of people with mental illness because I am trying to do things and be well after ten years of instability, misery and failure! [...]

Off-topic, “Yay!”

I’d have written this on my study blog but I’ve forgotten the email address I sign in with, whoops. I thought I’d bollocksed my essay. I got 64% last time, which was good for a first assignment.  I got 72% on my second essay!  If I got that on everything, it would be a first! [...]

Good CPNs/Social Workers/Doctors/Therapists

This’ll be badly written as I have about three minutes! Reading around the madosphere, there is a lot of poor treatment out there.  The Crisis Team in particular seem to get various boots hoofed into them, which I understand.  On the occasions I’ve dealt with them, they’ve been rather useless, but it’s difficult to know [...]

A Plan, B Plan, C Plan and D Plan

Hello!  How was bonfire night?  I went to the spectacular, somewhat frightening celebrations in Lewes.  There, I discovered an England I thought was fictional, a town inexplicably governed by the Lib Dems when it looks like a model of a Tory paradise, and a populace that still does blackface, possibly to make up for the [...]