There’s nothing wrong with being angry.

(Edited for clarity)
I’m still pretty much not in the mental head space (nor do I have the energy, things are just pretty shit here right now but hey ho) for updating this, however!  There has been one thing I’ve been thinking about a lot recently.  No, it’s not tea, sex, cigarettes or chicken, although at [...]

Hiatus

It’s a shame that “hiatus” sounds like the name of a particularly greasy piles ointment. Otherwise, it’s such a marvellous word.
Anyway, just to let you know that I’m going through some personal stuff right now and the really real world needs my attention so… I probably won’t be updating for a little while and [...]

True Life- I Don’t Like my Face BDD documentary looking for volunteers

MTV e-mailed me asking for help to find interesting people for a documentary they’re filming on Body Dysmorphic Disorder (how on earth they’ll manage to get people with BDD on a camera I have yet to fathom). It’s part of their acclaimed, “True Life” series.
True Life has been on TV for ten seasons now, [...]

Google Maps, and a photographic tour of my old haunts

I’ll show you mine if you show me yours…
Google Maps now has Street View, so you can spy on people  explore places . It’s fascinating, and I’ve been looking up everywhere I’ve lived.
 Here is where I was a baby.
Juniper Way, Twinbrook, Belfast, Northern Ireland (now Lisburn, since they slyly moved the city boundaries).

Anyway, all that’s too serious

Bugger seriousness.  I’m so crafty. When I write a long, serious post where I wonder if I’ve said too much, I always write little posts after it so it isn’t the first thing someone reads when they get here.
It’s a weekend, so here’s an open thread for you to post about delightful things should you [...]

My crap physical health, terrors, being a mentally ill teenager and adult and being “avoidant”.

This post may come across as flat in tone.  It’s because I am FACKING KNACKERED.   It is also long and serious.  This is because I am FACKING INTROSPECTIVE TODAY. 
I’ve also turned on comment threading so the comments will behave more like a messageboard, thus making it simplier for me to talk to you and you [...]

Yawn

Interesting to see how many of you work in the medical and academic fields!  I’d theorise that being mentally interesting usually comes with a little bit of an obsessive disposition that might be rather handy for study-intensive occupations.  I’d also be curious to know how many of those who ticked the “medical” field work in [...]

What do you do?

EDIT:  Totally forgot “student”.  Sorry!
Aetheread the Unread already wrote about this, but here’s Ricky Gervais and his big, idiotic mouth:
But now it’s…the new one is depression.  [Sarcastic tone of voice] ‘Oh yeah, I’m bipolar, I suffer from depression’.  And it’s always over-privileged performers.  You don’t see like… er… like… blue-collar workers, people on minimum wage… [...]

Stuff to be thankful for

I’d written a lengthy, depressive post here.  It was titled, “I am losing” and was about the fact that even if I bounce out of this depression, there’ll be another waiting for me, and another and another… and really, how many more can I go through?  Despite the medications, despite the “lifestyle changes”, despite the [...]

Mentally ill, but not crazy.

“You were my friend”. 
Why do I have this phrase running over and over in my mind?  It isn’t in an accusatory manner, more so a sad, wistful one, said so in parting.  Very strange.
It’s been a very long few days but I’m back in London now.  I very nearly didn’t get to Belfast at all. [...]

Egbert Rules OK

Thanks to Rob and my friends, I’m all moved! I like the new flat. I’ve been taking advantage of the heating. Yesterday I had a bath and put the towels on the radiator. They were lovely and warm when I got out. That was a novel experience.
There is a lot of unpacking [...]

What it feels like to be in my brain when I am depressed

So, here I am, not particularly striking, with my weird nose, rather tired.   I look normal enough.  Nothing much going on there.  Visualise tumbleweeds, flotsam, carrion shuddering on bone in an arid desert…

And here’s my brain- poetic license has been observed.
(Note: Not actual size.  It has been proven that manic depressives have brains that [...]