Libido

Cocks and boobs immortalised in tiny soaps.  I have no idea where I got these from.

It’s really embarrassing to admit to this, but…

Question regarding dementia and mental illness, for healthcare people out there

Can anyone shine light onto something I have been wondering about?  (The Shrink especially if he’s reading?)
Is there a greater risk for developing dementia (which I know is a catch all term and I do mean it generally) in later life higher for people who have experienced long, recurrent periods of mental illnesses such as [...]

Paranoia

I am doing my own head in at the moment.  I’ve been very snippy and paranoid lately, which has led me to some rather embarrassing conversations.  I had a go at another blogger (who a lot of you read and will probably see what an arse I’ve been acting like) for absolutely no reason, which [...]

My sordid little grief hole

If you’ve ever wondered where the MAGIC HAPPENS, it is at this messy desk, which was pushed up the Blackstock Road by me and Brendan last year.

The polystyrene cup up at the right hand corner has “Seaneen, this is a cup. Hooray. It makes life worth living” scribbled on it by Charlie Brooker.
Feel free to [...]

The future

The Employment and Support Allowance replaces Income Support and Incapacity for new benefit claimaints (claiming because they’re unwell) next month.  Everyone on these benefits will be migrated to the ESA by 2013.  Because I am under 25, I’ll be one of the first to be migrated by possibly next year.  
The thought of this sends [...]

Goodbye to my CPN, hello Effexor

An effort to write!  I have really not been feeling like it recently. That’s strange for me as my first instinct if someone blew my arms off would be to write about it.  With my toes, but still to write.  Right now, my body feels heavy and useless and I can barely raise my head, [...]

On the slab

I finally went for the ECG.  It was normal, so I’ll be on Effexor soon.
I didn’t know that an ECG involved lying back with your baps out.  It felt like a date.  I tried to preserve my modesty with the subtle use of cupping, but there was spillage.  Very unladylike.
An inordinate amount of psychiatric appointments [...]

The Motherland

Hello.  I’ve returned from the Motherland.  How I wish it were the Fatherland.
 Belfast was great.  It was lovely to have us (my siblings, anyway) all together for Orlaigh’s sixteenth, which I still refuse to believe has come to pass.  I spent not as much time as I would have liked to with my [...]

Readers!

There is a post before this one, relevant to the blog for a change, which is being roundly ignored so here I am to prod you in its direction before asking…
Who are you?  Tell me a little bit about yourself.  Even if you don’t normally comment, and even if you do.  I know I’m toss [...]

Really real world

Very quiet around here, my stats have taken a tumble, but this usually happens after I return from a jaunt into the really real world.  Hello anyway.  It’s a little less mentalism-centric around here at the moment, given that I am including Tales from my Tedious Life in my normally focused discourse.  It’s just because [...]

The twelve hour rule

I need to start going to bed earlier.  As it stands, I stay up until about two on the nights that I do sleep.  Seroquel knocks me out for almost exactly twelve hours, so voila, I’m up at 2pm and have missed most of the day.  I do set countless alarms but it’s useless. There [...]

Sponsor Michelle

My sister Michelle is still £500 off her target for the Great North Run so if you could..
This year we are taking part in the Great North Run to raise £700 for the Parkinson’s Disease Society.  This charity is a fantastic organisation which does amazing work, and means a lot to us and our relatives.

Letting yourself “off the hook”

You’ll worry less about what people think about you when you realize how seldom they do.
David Foster Wallace, author of the fantastic, “Infinite Jest”, committed suicide on Friday evening.  Just thought I’d acknowledge that absolutely rubbish news here.
Life goes on here, loudly.
I’ve been drawing today in my sketch pad.  I tried to draw Rob earlier [...]

Back and forth

It’s gloriously sunny, and to celebrate this rare gorgeous day, I am sitting in my flat with my dressing gown hood pulled over my head, admiring the way the light illuminates my bookshelf (makes it look rather holy, as if my copy of “The Yellow Wallpaper” were the grail) and glitters Girl Cat’s fur.  Speaking [...]

Hello, I’m 23

Well, I’ve been twenty three for almost a week.  Or, in fact, it could be exactly a week as nobody is entirely sure when my birthday is.  Some say the third, some say the fourth.  You would think that my mother would have the definitive answer, seeing as how a 5lb human being clawed its [...]

Traditional Birthday Post

I’m 23!
Paula says hello!

Cheerio for a while, and enjoy the comedy

Another appointment with the CPN today.  I don’t want to go into detail, it’s the same thing every week, an agitated kind of depression and extremely bleak racing thoughts that I try to distract myself from.  I’m still my wry self, but tend to wander off mid sente…  Am still “getting things done”, so to [...]

Responsibility and blogging

Insomnia and ills means I’ve spent the day reading blogs and rubbing my eyes.  There’s a general theme pervading right now, which is one of blogging responsibly.  This discussion began at this post here at SZrecovery.  Exact Science has also written about it recently, in regards to posting graphically about self harm.
Personally, I feel that [...]