Irrelevant: Insomnia and vanity

This is a little bit off-topic.  I feel rather sorry for any new readers who come here to read all about manic depression.  There’s been quite a few off-topic posts of late.  I apologise, I’ve been quite scattered of late, and not that well.  Anyway, it’s all here, I promise, just have a root around.
I’m [...]

My Two Friends

Can I just state for the record:
Having big breasts, bangers, bosoms, whatever you call it is not worth the hassle most of the time.

The Good, The Bad and the Ugly

A weekend of nothing stretches out before me.
Thank you for dishing on Effexor.  At this point, I’m willing to try anything but I must admit that I am somewhat envisaging being drop kicked into a manic episode.  I wonder how far that initial boot in the arse would propel me.  I see myself roaming Hampstead [...]

Apologies

If I’ve chewed your face off for no reason in the past few days, or if you’ve received a ratty e-mail from me, please accept my apologies.  I am still my charming self, but the past few days have been particularly low ones and my irritation at myself is basically spewing out into irritation at [...]

Effexor

In more being thrown onto random medication…
As my mood continues its rapid decline, at my medication review I was prescribed Effexor.  I have to go to the hospital for blood tests and an EKG first.  I think Hannah is taking me.
He said he was severely limited in what he could prescribe.  Nothing that causes weight [...]

Hatemail, or, “Mildly aggressive swipes at my appearance”.

Terribly bad few days, in terms of mentalism.  I don’t want to talk about it, though.  I have the physical ills at the moment too so my head is swimming and I generally feel as though I’m made of lead.  I want to lie in bed and let someone stroke my head for a while.
I [...]

Holidays in the sun

I deleted a post I wrote yesterday as I became painfully aware what I sounded like (mad, a mad person in denial).  So let’s pretend you didn’t read that.  I’m not mad but I am going through some unpleasant stuff right now.    But, forget about it for now, let’s talk about stuff other than [...]

Scary

Graphic post under here.

Aaaaaaah

Quiet flat, fairy lights, Moonlight Sonata.
I love pieces of music that, no matter what mood I’m in, will make me feel lovely and warm until their last note.

Snap Happy

Here is an entry about “other”.  Mainly delicious photographs.  A deficit of words, hooray!  Reading through some of the entries here, they almost dip into waffling, affected parody.  Marvellous.

Click read more to read more!

Inside the Iron Maiden

I don’t like self pity.  Least of all my own.
“Bravery”, in terms of illness, is will. If you don’t challenge your own negative thoughts, you lose.  The trouble with depression is that you tend to keep the thoughts to yourself.  Positive thoughts don’t squeak through.  There is no challenge.  You swallow up whatever your mind [...]

Something for the weekend: the Depressive Mix Tape, Part the First

It’s been extremely quiet around here.  It feels a little like I am the last one at a party drunkenly fiddling with the light switches.  And then my nipples.
I am trying to catch up with comments but for the most part the best thing I can say is “thank you” and “be okay”.
Anyway, following the [...]

Always was grumpy

All Change with the CMHT

I am going to start widening the focus of this blog a bit, cos I’m getting irritated just writing exclusively about mental health.  It will be 98% mental health, and 2% Other from now on, just so I don’t feel as though this is relentlessly “I’m mental!”
Right, for readers old and new, let me clarify [...]

Hypomanic Mix

To cheer both you and I up, I’m making the Hypomanic’s Mix Tape, full of cheerful, bouncy, summery songs and my rough West Belfast accent.
Here you go! Mostly just music but it should happily wile away an hour. My babbling is at a minimum because I feel rather unwell today and every third [...]

Take Your Own Advice

If someone sidled up to me and whispered worriedly into my ear; “I feel like shit.  I’m exhausted.  I just want to sleep all the time.  As soon as I wake up, I go back to sleep.  I’m not exercising.  I’ve stopped cycling.  I’ve stopped going to the gym.  I’m not eating properly but I’m [...]

Eugenics

I am rather angry today as I’ve got myself into an argument with someone concerning human genetic engineering.
My standpoint on this, in short is:

In theory, it’s a good idea because you could eradicate life-shortening genetic illnesses at birth, giving someone a better chance in life.
But the criteria for what is an “undesirable” genetic illness is [...]

Sponsor My Sister

My big sister Michelle is doing the Great North Run this year for the Parkinson’s Disease Society.
This year we are taking part in the Great North Run to raise £700 for the Parkinson’s Disease Society.  This charity is a fantastic organisation which does amazing work, and means a lot to us and our relatives.

We are [...]

The Cure

Watch episodes of House until you’re so tired you can’t think straight.
I can’t take Hugh Laurie seriously as, in my mind, he’s always going to be the man who did this:

Goodnight!

White Noise In My Head

I thought I was driving myself mad thinking about it.  I thought I was driving myself mad writing about it.
I wasn’t.  I’m not.  I’m just driving myself mad.