God is here. You will not find tomorrow.

That’s the subject line of some creepy spam that I was sent earlier. Although these titles seem randomly generated, they do, on occasion, make me uneasy.
There isn’t much to report over here, and I haven’t really been in the mood for writing or talking. Depression is the most boring subject in the [...]

Crisis Team Part Two

Still low, so no witty or cynical posts for you at the moment.

Crisis Team

My depression took a very sharp downturn a few days ago. I’d been feeling quite awful all week. I had stopped sleeping, despite taking Seroquel. I spent my fifth anniversary alternating between crying my eyes and lying on my seatee staring at the wall. The fifth anniversary post was written a [...]

My Five Year London Anniversary: An Introspective then Retrospective

25th April means I have lived in London for five years!
Given that I didn’t even think I was going to be alive in five years, that’s pretty good, isn’t it!
So, five years ago, I took a taxi to the airport and never looked back.
Well, that’s not entirely true. For the first year, I was [...]

Mild Depression

Anger Management: Tuesday Fluff

Here’s an unrelated to manic depression post for yer.
I am trying to stave off threatening depression by distracting myself from the burgeoning suicidal thoughts that are on repeat in my head. So on that happy note…
If, like me, you feel rather wound up today, please nominate a face for your punching pleasure.
Gillian McKeith [...]

The Doctor Who Hears Voices

On now on channel 4.
EDIT: Docu-drama, not a documentary as I originally thought. Bit disappointed that she was an actress.

The Insane Guide to Living With Mental Illness: The Psychiatric Appointment

Well, it’s been a while since I’ve written an Insane Guide! Previously on the Insane Guide to Living with Mental Illness, we’ve had fun with depression, a trip to mania, the joy of psychosis and the hell of the mixed episode.
Here is the Insane Guide to meeting your own personal God: The Psychiatrist.
I don’t [...]

Your medication is just for you, do not give it to anybody else

Though it’s funny when you do. Rob couldn’t sleep last night so he took Zopiclone. Within about a half an hour, he was slurring and couldn’t stand up. I had to pick him up and drag him into the bedroom.  Now he wants to know what he was slurring about.  Something about [...]

Girl Afraid

I’ve had an extremely unproductive few days. I’ve had zero energy and have felt like doing absolutely bugger all. For forty eight hours I’ve been aimlessly clicking on Wikipedia links and watching the QVC Shopping Channel. Bored presenters ad libbing for half an hour about a dish mop is not exactly intellectually [...]

Weeps

Oh no!  My absence killed my traffic!  It hasn’t been so low since I started this blog!

Faking Mental Illness, Mad Pride and the Survivor Movement

This is a search term that often leads here. I raise my eyebrow at this.
It was implied- nay, flat out said- by some when I started this blog that my “illness” was nothing more than me presenting myself at the doctors with a handful of googled diagnostic criteria. There was even a parody blog, [...]

Going To Your Funeral

You might have guessed that I have moved. I have the internet again. Mania collapsed predictably into a numbing depression that I am struggling with at the moment. I’ve stopped taking Zopiclone, and so, the hallucinations are gone. I had another bad night of hallucinations, which led to a panic attack, [...]

Guess who’s back

Back again…
Hello chaps!  It’s me!
Sorry the blog was down so long.  I have been having a hell of a time of it (rather bad dysphoric manic episode and a lot of massive stress) recently and wasn’t feeling like being held up to scrutiny, I needed to be on my own.  Don’t worry, in the past [...]