I deleted my collasal rant yesterday as I don’t like writing sweary rants in here; that’s what Livejournal is for!
What set me off was the arrival of a letter from the DWP. It was from Income Support saying that they had never received my claim. This was the claim I bought by hand to the Jobcentre at the beginning of October.
It means that I have to start over again. I don’t have a receipt or anything.
I’m bringing the stuff for Housing Benefit to the housing office today but either way, I’m pretty screwed. I am living off money people have leant to me. Loans; either from the Jobcentre or otherwise; are out of the question because I am in absolutely no position to pay anything back. It will take a while to get any sort of money from Housing Benefit, and, due to the laughable under 25 rule, it’s still not enough to cover my rent. I had been counting on the backdated Income Support to make up the difference.
I’m at my wits’ end, really. I think I should get a new job, but even that’s going to be difficult because my last year’s jobs all ended in my dismissal. This whole process is starting to feel utterly pointless. I am angry because, while most 17 year olds I knew were in school, I was in London working. I have worked since I was 16 and still I can’t get any help from the benefits system.
I am starting to get very depressed. The way I am living right now is a half-life, and I am sick of struggling just to survive. I wouldn’t have managed to pay my rent had it not been for Tony, but I want to support myself. I appreciate all the help people have given me but I want to be able to pay my own rent. I am angry, furious, at the benefits system and angry at myself for being too sick to work and losing so many jobs.
It’s almost Christmas, though, which depresses me further. I am so jealous of all my friends. Buying presents, going on holidays, buying new clothes, while I burst out of clothes that don’t fit me anymore because I’ve gained so much weight, and I don’t know if I am going to get home for Christmas now because every penny I have, I need.
So, very downhearted over here.
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